In what could well be called my previous life, I was unconsciously obsessed with material and possessions. It was my clothes, my toys, my food, my bicycle, my motorbike, my car, my house... and it was not always easy to share some of it, if it was even possible.
I hold on so much to them, that I would do everything I can to make sure they stay in my possession as long as possible. I would set things on dedicated places, so I was sure not many people would find them. I would buy locks, that take even with specialised tools a long time to open. I would be a maniac of alarm systems and no insurance would be good enough to make sure I don't lose anything.
It would cost me a lot of money to buy the material and possessions, even more to insure them and the fear to at some point lose it would be hard to live with. So why is that, why can I not just let go and accept?
Looking back to it today, it all looks like to do with the energy levels. I used to throw dead, artificial and low energy food in myself. How can I expect with such a crap in my body to feel positive things? I didn't feel anything at all, it was just as the world was against me, I was what I had, and had to protect all that, before I would die, when I would potentially lose them.
When I started to change my food habits like I describe here, it honestly really felt like I was throwing new energy in my body. It felt as if my body was in sync and found a connection with nature. Might be normal if I eat whole food plants and fruits, that nature provides to us...
I started to enjoy a new sort of freedom that I had never experienced before. I was me in who I was and don’t need anything else for that.
My clothes are just things that I use to cover myself, like culturally predefined, where I live on earth. I kept only those in which I felt really good, knew they were fair-trade and ideally with messages that I support. Nothing related anymore with brands that I really need to have, otherwise I'm a failure like I used to think before. If I would lose them all, it will be a good time for a cleanup. The only 3 exceptions for me personally, are Burton (although they have some ethical and fair trade items) for snowboard, Dainese for protection, safety clothes and Nike for my basketball shoes, all the rest I buy only what I need, ideally local, ethical, fair-trade and from natural materials.
My toys, they are just toys, it is the way I think about them, that makes them the way I think about them. If I remove the thinking and emotional side around, they are just replaceable toys.
My motorbike, was definitely part of the toys, now seen its size and value, I've always seen it as something special. I enjoyed and still enjoy riding the motorbike. The sensation is so special and it is one of these things that goes above what nature normally provide me. It's artificial and the price to pay for the sensation makes its lose it attraction today for me. I've also today from a naturalistic point of view, sensations that are much stronger than the motorbike. The only thing that is irreplaceable, are the great moments we spent together with the friends, now today I realise that the motorbike is not a must for that. It helped back in the days.
My car, is just an object to move me from one point to another slightly faster. Is it necessary that my life goes so fast? Sometimes it is, sometimes it isn't, the majority of the time I just don't know.
My house, is the place where the family is and where I'm trying to build a further connection with nature. I love it there, now together with the family, I'm sure we can create a home at a different location, just like so many animals do.
My food is very precious to me, I'm so grateful for the energy it provides me. I love to eat, I love to eat as much as my body tells me to do so. Something that changed completely, is that it is also a pleasure to share it or even make it for someone else. This is something very difficult before, sharing things I craved and for which I had no energy to make them myself.
Everything is temporary in life, it's moving energy, nothing is mine and in all, we find the beauty of nature that provide us everything we need.
As humans, we managed to create negative energy out of nature and we have become specialist in making us crave these negative energies.
Changing my intake of energy via different food (whole food plants and fruits), made me realise it and slowly and surely move away from it.
Great video and article on the subject by Leo Babauta
https://zenhabits.net/letgo-possessions/
#peace #goodfood #nature #fruitsandvegetables #wholefood #freedom #giveupfear #change #zenhabits #leobabauta
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